Long time

Hey all it has been a long time.
Ok so this is not going to be like me but i have been thinking about this a lot.
Why do i all ways like the guys i know i can't have?
I don't know why i do it to myself. Does any one know why?
I know i need to put my forces on God and i am trying to do that.
Wow i think i need to see the Good this in my life right now. Can any one help?
OK i am done with this sad post i hope a more happy one will come soon.
Ttly for now.